Feeling ok

Sorry for the absence been so busy!! Finally I went out partying last weekend, hit some clubs with some of my expat mates. Had a blast. First time out in Hanoi and first time I've felt well enough!! See pic for proof of Angel actually off the sofa!

Have a couple of good friends here now, and have also met some crazies- only to be expected I suppose, in the ex pat sex pat world!

I have learned a lot these last couple of weeks and have been growing as a person. Looking forward to spending christmas with bf in thailand. Could do with the relaxation! Been running around madly last couple of weeks!

Vietnamese is coming on, able to hold small conversations now. Now to learn some Thai!

Missed me?

So, after a couple of weeks of hell (story of my life) Im back on top again. Been so sick! Apparently people always get sick when they get here, but I've been attached to an IV all week- which came out yesterday (when I caught a cold...) So feeling a little better now. Have lost weight of course (vomiting does that to you) So according to my medical I am 156cm (I grew!) and 41.5kg with a BMI of 23. My blood pressure is 119 over 64 (which is good) I have to go back on dec 20th to check on my progress, but right now after spending every day in a clinic (my morning routine- drive to clinic, recieve IV transfusion, then drive to work) I'm free!
Didn't get to Bangkok, as had IV in, but that's ok as I'm going to Thailand for CHRISTMAS.

Been meeting people too, met a pretty cool canadian expat today, saw their accomodation (paying less than me!) And decided if I stay here will move in in february- paying half the rent with a maid included. Need to figure out what to do with my life though. Still waiting for that purpose. But am determined to enjoy my time here and travel and see stuff as much as I can! Going for dinner at the Canadians tonight and meeting his girlfriend and friends so that should be cool.

So whilst I'm waiting for the answers to come to me, I'm making the most of my life :)

The List

So I made a list today- all the things I need to do to make my life better. The first was go out and meet people. Here is photographic evidence of that- me out with my new friend Natalie.(click pic for bigger size) I'm sure you'll be hearing a lot more about her :) I plan to have fun from now on, and stop waiting around for men. I intend to enjoy my life.


Off to Bangkok next weekend, and intend to buy a camera there- so lots more pics coming! Sleep now, back to work tomorrow, still not feeling great but have a follow up appointment with the doc- so should be fine. I'm finally taking control of my life.

Following the heart

I have a plan- at least short term.

I feel clearer about what i should do, and how I should do it. I don't want to quit and feel even more of a failure. I want to do a good job, and be able to look myself in the mirror everyday, and achieve something.

Im not a quitter, in any part of my life. And I need to stop running away and start facing myself.

I need to look at myself and change the negative things.

And I need to spend time with the bf, to see if he's the one.

I need to follow my heart on this one.

Crossroads

I am now at a crossroads in my life.

Do I carry on working here? Do I quit my job and go back to Denmark, or do I quit my job and go travel the world?

On one hand I am a very safe secure person who needs stability, on the other Im spontaneous and irrational.

I feel I need to do something drastic with my life, I feel Im wasting it, sitting here waiting for something or someone good to happen.

I am hoping something will happen to show me what I should do next. To help me make a decision.

Being so sick and feverish the last few days and being on my own, I have been thinking about my life and what I want from it.

I'm 32 soon.. I do want marriage kids, before I get too old, but sometimes I feel thats never going to happen, and I feel alone and reckless and feel like running away, closing this chapter of my life and moving on, seeing where the world takes me next.

I want someone to tell me- come here! I want you! This is where you belong! And I want to believe them.