Saturday 1 December 2007

Crossroads

I am now at a crossroads in my life.

Do I carry on working here? Do I quit my job and go back to Denmark, or do I quit my job and go travel the world?

On one hand I am a very safe secure person who needs stability, on the other Im spontaneous and irrational.

I feel I need to do something drastic with my life, I feel Im wasting it, sitting here waiting for something or someone good to happen.

I am hoping something will happen to show me what I should do next. To help me make a decision.

Being so sick and feverish the last few days and being on my own, I have been thinking about my life and what I want from it.

I'm 32 soon.. I do want marriage kids, before I get too old, but sometimes I feel thats never going to happen, and I feel alone and reckless and feel like running away, closing this chapter of my life and moving on, seeing where the world takes me next.

I want someone to tell me- come here! I want you! This is where you belong! And I want to believe them.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Come back to denmark. Let me show you i still care about you. Let me hold you one last time.
The hardest part about being me, is not being us.

Anonymous said...

I think you should do what your heart really tells you. Dont make choises from what others want you to do . Do what you want to do. You make the choise and choose the man in your life. Tell the man you want him and if he lets you down then make it his loss, because it is. Your a great person who deserve the best.
When someone tells you that they want you you also need to believe them. Dont mistrust and just enjoy. Accept the fact that someone really wants you for you and not something else. And most of all. Believe in your self and the choises you make. Done second guess yourself.
We are a few people here who love you. Believe in that love. You are not alone.
I love you and I allways will.