Im feeling so bad about this one Im laying awake thinking about it, so thought I had better blog it..
Dan. The guy who out of the goodness of his heart lets me stay in his spare room until I can get myself sorted, who I owe a lot too and he owes me nothing.
Why then do I feel so hurt?
Like today for instance, his friend comes over. I have spent the day cleaning the house and ironing his shirts, doing what I can to try and repay the fact that I am staying in his home. I mean I do offer money for bills and stuff but he doesnt accept it. I dont get thanked but then I dont expect it; its the least I can do.
I am very confused as to our realtionship as I thought we were friends, but he doesnt seem to want to hang out with me or anything.
Anyway today he had his friend around, and we are all sitting on the sofa, and he offers to make his friend dinner. Not that I would have accepted but I was ignored. I made a bowl of soup. So they are sitting around eating their dinner, and offer the dog a chip but not me!! That makes me feel crap.
Im not even offered a cup of tea ( not that I would accept)
I feel liek a second class citizen. I mean I am not a sponger by any means, I buy all my own stuff.. Dan said he wanted cheesecake so when we popped to the shops later I bought one, but didnt even get a thank you.
I feel like I am doing my best but I cant make Dan happy. He always comes home upset about something but nothing I do or say makes him feel better.
I think maybe he doesnt want me around, so I ask him, maybe I should move out when Im back from NZ, but he says no.
I even wrote him an email trying to expain how I felt, but he ignored it.
I hate being places I am not wanted, it gets me down.