Monday, 27 October 2008
This low tolereance of stress isnt really working out for me. I forgot how hard it was to get through nurse training keeping my mouth shut about bad practice and cruelty, but thats just what i have to do. Like my old tutor used to say- you cant do anything now, but when you train and manage a place like this then you can make a difference but you cant do that if you dont pass. And if you know me at all keeping my mouth shut is not something I find easy, especially where there is unfairness. Im the type of person that stands up to the bully on behalf of bullied. Standing by and watching people treated this way cuts me deep. I feel their pain, their suffering, and I dont know if I have the strength or support to deal with that right now. I have to suck up to the bullies in order to pass this placement, and it goes against all my principles but im going to have to suck it up and be pleasant... thats one think I suck at, when something is wrong I say it is.. gotta get thru this week and shut up.