My father hates me, my heart is broken, Im alone is a country that sucks working on a mental health ward where the staff are crazier than the clients. I have no one to turn to, and the one person I had i drove away. There is something wrong with me.
Why cant I have a normal life? Why is there always stress and hassle?
I need a guardian angel to scoop down pick me up and cradle me so I can cry as much as I want and still be protected.
Im cryin constantly, I am tired and stressed, I cant eat or sleep. one more day on the wards then a long weekend... which I intend to spend in bed all by myself- seeing as i know no one here and am tired as hell.
Just gotta get thru this week... and this year..
have a job interview in Aus when I get back so thats positive....
it feels like Im constantly fighting and I dont want to, I just want a peaceful life, with a dog , a man and contentness.
Im 32 and I feel so old, not sure how much longer can cope with this world.
Whenever I travel to english nations or their colonies I am always disappointed. Maybe I should return to asia- corrupt as the government are the people are solid.