Thank you for those of you who were concerned, I'm not dead, or in hospital- just don't need to write so much right now.
Happiness- a series of chemical reactions that lead to a feeling of wellbeing. I have chemical reactions right now, and although my wellbeing isn't quite there yet- it's on it's way.
To get rid of unecessary things from your life and keep those close that mean a lot to you is scary but very refreshing. But on the way you also lose things that mean a lot to you, it makes you sad but in the end it's for the best, even though it may hurt.
Right now Angel is happy (gasp) I hope it lasts...