Hormones, medication, whatever the reason for feeling like I do right now, I'm still feeling it. Having spent the last week entirely alone except a couple of visits to drs that didnt listen to me anyway and my cats, I'm starting to feel a little bit isolated.
The doctor yesterday was nice. It seems I picked up a bug on my travels and the bug has been eating my insides and making them swell up. NowI have a stomach ulcer- http://www.mamashealth.com/stomach.asp which it actually ok, because I can take medication for it. So I can go back to work on monday.
My period started yesterday, so maybe it's the hormones, or maybe it's the medication or maybe it's just lonliness. I am just sitting here crying, and feeling alone. I don't know why, so that probably means it's hormonal. Fucking hormones.
I know my friends have been saying stuff to me, that makes me question what I am doing. I know they have my best interests at heart, but I have told them I don't want to discuss that part of my life, as it makes me doubt when they say things, and they don't have an understanding of how things really are.
Anyway need a new lifestyle, a new diet (or in fact a diet) and find a way to relax.. thinking about yoga..