Despite all the references to Pattaya being seedy and polluted, I actually quite like it. Came down here to follow my path, met a semi buddhist web guy, called Richard, who has a buddhist priest for a mother... He has some interesting stuff to teach me but I only have a week down here. I think I am on the right path here and I think my next step is to find a buddhist retreat.
I think this is at least a start on my path to happiness. I have to get rid of all the crap thoughts :)
Still cant shake this sickness though- been couging like crazy. Thought it was getting better too ! :(