Friday, 4 January 2008

Unfairy tales

I've said this before and I will say it again: fairytales ruin lives.

All these expectation one has of meeting princes and happy endings, ruins what really is there and is special. Love isnt flowers and diamonds, its a real feeling that you just cant shake off no matter what you do. Its a content feeling around a certain person.

And so what is happiness? Being with the person that makes you feel good- whether its on a paradise island or a shopping trip to a german superstore, just being in their company makes you feel safe, warm and smile. Makes you want to build a home, a nest with them, a future with them. Waking up next to their warm body, hearing their heartbeat and smelling their scent is happiness.

Despite being brought up on happy ever afters, reality is mundane, but real. Movies don't help either. That guy isnt going to cross 3 continents just to hold you again. But that doesnt mean he doesnt love you, in a quiet and controlled way, one that doesnt get displayed.

Nothing wrong with passion though. Actually yes there is. There are 2 sides to passion, the ugly side being fear and jealousy and manifesting in insecurities and tantrums. The good side to passion is love and affection, but its hard to have one without the other.. isnt it? The thing that hurts the most though is indifference. I can understand no passion, but indifference- ouch.

But at the end of the day no one is going to slay your dragons for you, you have to do it yourself. I'm slaying mine right now...

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

You cant have the one without the other. Then you would be cold and emosionless. And you are not that. Which is good. It is what gives you plessure and joy, but also hurts. But it makes you feel alive. Pain can you understand so much about yourself though it is not fun.