Tuesday, 11 March 2008
PMSing like hell, tired and in tears and feeling totally sad and lonely. I hate feeling desperate like this. I see pictures of people with their families and I get sad. I hear news of friends getting married and having babies and although I am so happy for them I feel sad. I feel like I am never going to find that kind of happiness. I miss being loved and cared for. I miss the warmth of someone holding me, stroking my hair-its been so long now. I will soon be back in Denmark and all I really want to see after the long flight is a friendly face and a hug. But there is no one to meet me, or hug me, or tell me they missed me. No one misses me. I am not important to anyone. No one would miss me if I disappeared. I am nothing. And i know getting sad like this just makes it worse, no one wants to be with someone so sad. I feel like i am freefalling through the universe with no one to catch me.